yeah. hey. it's Friday once more and i here to post.

where to start?

[first thing that comes to mind..] i have an inferiority-complex towards other people and i realized this earlier in school. i hated myself for it. cause i wanted to be someone but i don't take hold of opportunities, wait, no. it's that i don't make opportunities for myself to be someone and that i also feel that even if i do my best, i'm not good enough and that nobody needs me.

i thank luisa btw for listening to me yesterday. i was ranting and complaining and saying things that i think only caused me to bother her. but thanks anyway for hearing me out:P

[second thing that comes to mind cause i saw it on Crunchyroll...]

anyway that was kind of random.~ so like it was the last meeting of clubs earlier. We ate carbonara [i think] and watched parent trap but didn't get to finish it cause it was already recess. The whole batch also did adoration together then we voted during lunch and i still have ink [?] on my fingers. Then we had AP and then our culminating activity. Ellie, Me, Bianca and Grethel were usherettes. yeah. it was nice.

so anyway [again] i'm lost in my own thoughts. haaa. 7 more day to go and i'm a sophie. it's sucks. i don't want it to end. i want to spend more time with my classmates. i love them [some] too much. i want to experience more things with them. grr.

okay. change topic. i hate falling in love. being in love. falling out of love. in short i don't like love.

oh yeah and hate isn't the opposite of love, it's indifference. cause if you hate someone you still harbor feelings for that person and you still think about that person. [btw while i'm writing this down i am having an arguement with one of my guy friends about this topic..]

RAPTURE; 4:51 AM