December 21, 2007
-ignorance-
yeow. incapacitated to overcome my own issues... :
what i want for christmas [my true wishlist]...
- a new mp3/ mp4/ ipod [any] with atleast 2 gigs
- a new phone.. motorola or nokia
- a new digi cam.. preferably canon
- japanese food. [udon, ramen, sushi, maki...]
- new skin
- high grades
-more money
- my own room
- a dress
- new shoes
- a hoodie
- [what else?]
I want to forget what i have been feeling for you. I know that it's not right to call what i feel love cause it could never be that way. I want to stop the hurt that I feel everytime you ignore me and you treat other people with special care as if they are so fragile they would break. I know that feeling this way towards you from the beginning was wrong and could only end with me getting hurt and crying, but still i patronized it. "Friends, this is what we are and i want it to stay that way." This is the ideal set-up for us but i wish that you could have the same feelings as mine and we could go beyond that. Knowing you, it's not impossible but how could it be true? I want to believe that i love you. I want to belive that we could be. I want to believe that you could never knw what i truly feel. I just forgot that believing in these is just a dream.
yeah. random but true. sorry. i just wanted to say what i felt.
can anyone help me change my skin?
can't help but miss you. hope i could forget what i feel or it could just hurt me more.
->miah 12.22.07 2.50pm
--i forgot, i love you--
RAPTURE; 10:21 PM
